Healing Journey - Day 25

Today was a doozy.

I didn't get quite enough sleep, but I did wake up earlier than usual, giving me enough time to get to the baths for 2 hours before my afternoon calls.

Took time for my morning ritual, juice, and smoothie in my brand new Oscar-Wilde-style RECLINING chair. (Just discovered I can lean back in this sweet seat.)

For my birthday last year, I treated myself to a bevy of new crystals. I was a novice and my sweet friend (find her on insta @healingwithjenn) set me up with a series of gorgeous pieces based on what I was working on in my life. This crystal pictured below was one of them.

As I set out for my European excursion, I knew I wanted to bring crystals with me, and I couldn't bring them all. So I had to engage in a little Sophie's choice action. I energetically felt pulled to bring this one, and only one other. In re-reading what Jenn said about this crystal, I'm amazed at how my intuition was at work!

"This big green/blue heart is fuchsite and kyanite (a gem that has two crystals in one!). This precious crystal is mined only from my source and carved specifically for them, so is a rare find. Fuchsite is known as "the healer's stone," and Kyanite is an excellent stone for meditation and attunement. It will not retain negative vibrations or energy, therefore never requiring clearing. Kyanite aligns all chakras and subtle bodies instantly. It provides balance of yin-yang energy and dispels blockages, moving energy gently through the physical body. This combination is perfect for deep heart healing and communication."

I'm realizing that my "healing journey" that I initially thought was for something else is turning out to be a heart-healing one. How perfect is this gem!!

And this is my new version of Juicy Juice (who remembers this stuff?!?): 1 beet, 1 apple, 4-5 celery stalks, 2-3 carrots, 1/2 lemon, square of ginger. Raw, enzyme-rich, and natural plant sugars ONLY.

I was a little bit pressed for time getting to the baths today since I had trouble focusing during my morning ritual and got off track. Then I had to be back by 4:30/5 for an ancestral clearing session that I was doing by Skype (clearing whhhhaaaa?! I know, right?!).

Fortunately, I managed to squeeze in 90 minutes of bathing, but it was rushed and not as relaxing as usual. Then I sprinted over to Vegan Love to grab a delish vegan sweet potato burger on a gluten-free bun. SCORE.

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I was cutting it RILL close to my 5 PM session, so I shoved a few bites of burger into my face, and then logged onto Skype, sweaty from running home and windblown from walking over the bridge.

Honestly, I had no idea what to expect. A dear friend of mine referred me to a man named Steve who guides people through ancestral healing. She recounted a very powerful experience that she had during a session with him, and based on what she expressed to me, I asked no further questions and just booked a 60-minute session. 

I won't go into all the details right now because much of what came up is very private and I'm still processing, but essentially I felt like a demon was trying to escape from my body. LITERALLY. A demon that consisted of pain and suffering of tens of thousands of years of human existence. I experienced images of past lives, and early childhood memories. I basically sobbed for 90 minutes straight, and the physical tension I've experienced in my jaw, tongue and throat ever since I can remember was released by at least 80%. I've never experienced a physical shift in energy that was this powerful and fast-acting. The shield I've wielded to repress feelings of anger, pain, and shame and prevent myself from fully receiving love, connection, and prosperity is beginning to come down. I'm understanding all the ways I sabotage myself because I believe I don't deserve to be alive and experience joy and abundance. I'm also starting to realize that my choice to come to the baths in Budapest was a way for me to heal my soul on a much deeper level than I could have ever imagined.

I booked another session for next week. It's time to go deep.